Waiting on the Day
when things aren’t going so well
it’s easy to forget how it feels when things do go well
or not well, but just not so bogged down in the bullshit
when things just sort of plod along smoothly
when nothing much really matters that much and everything’s kind of okay
we forget to notice that it’s okay
we forget to notice that it’s okay and that nothing much is really that wrong.
When we try
when we’re trying out best
to dig our way out
to swim to the top and not let our stuff, our seriously painful stuff
bring us down with all of its seemingly eternal weight
we forget to turn around
even for just a minute
to look behind us and not see the monsters
but see the distance
see how far we’ve really come.
When floating feels normal
as soon as you realise this
turn around and look behind you
and really see the depth of what you just pulled yourself out of.
But don’t look too close
don’t forget that you’re floating:
fill the sails
feel the sun
close your eyes and see your light – feel the warmth.
And remember it.